I’m such a Libra

There is way too much information on the internet. I can’t stop looking at it.

I need a weight loss program, but there are SO MANY OF THEM! Here are the options I’m looking at right now:

1) Jamie Eason’s Live Fit Trainner
I attempted this program a few years ago. I followed the exercise routine, but wasn’t following the nutrition aspect. I has just finished working with a personal trainer at my gym and I had amazing results – I just needed something to keep me going at the gym. I made it to Phase 2 before I puled a muscle, which made some of the exercises impossible for me to do. I felt like this was a pretty good program, except the workouts took a huge portion of my time (i guess I’m just slow??). I also didn’t finish work until 5:30, then I went to the gym for an hour and a half, then needed to make dinner and entertain my dog. It didn’t work out for me. Looking at it again now though, it seems like it could fit better in my life and I could follow it more closely with my boyfriend.

2) T-25 or other workout DVD
I have the T-25 workouts at home, and have tried a few of them, but was not a huge fan. It is VERY convenient that these workouts are 25 minutes long and I can do them at home. I think that is the biggest plus. I didn’t fall in love with the videos however because I didn’t “feel it” as much as I thought I would. I’m also not a huge fan of working out at home because I love the gym feel (minus being embarrassed to see my old trainer since i gained 45 pounds since working with him). I also have some Biggest Loser DVD’s that I use sometimes and I do enjoy those.

3) MyDreamShape.com
This girl has an amazing blog with different workouts each day, along with recipes, tips, workout songs, etc. They look pretty simple to follow and I have done a few of them in the past and enjoyed them.

4) My own mix of everything
Lately I’ve been doing a mix of cardio (either sprints or HIIT on the elliptical [i like how easy it is on my knees]). I’m not sure how effective this will work. I am watching what I’m eating and trying to get back in the routine I was in before when I lost 30 pounds. It’s a lot easier said than done. I also lost this weight with a personal trainer, but the workouts he was getting me to do weren’t rocket science – basically if I sweat and got my heart rate up, it was effective.

You-Cant-Spell-Challenge

I just need to make a decision and stick to it, right? I just want to make sure I pick the *right* thing, as if there really is a right and wrong decision here. Whatever I pick it’s going to challenge me, which will result in a change!

Hopefully I’ll decide what program I want to follow by Monday and then I can start a brand new week with a brand new me! Until then I’m just going to continue my mix of everything, to keep me in the routine of working out and eating healthier.

xoxo

Silly Girl

It’s October!
October is my favorite month. It’s my birthday, the weather is getting nice and crisp, the leaves are changing colors, it’s time to start making stew and chilli – EXCELLENT! I LOVE AUTUMN! I LOVE OCTOBER!

Here are a few things I have planned for my October:

I celebrated my 27th day of birth. It was scary. I hate getting older. I always get the feeling I’m not on track with my life. I found a quote online recently that has started to change my mind
“Don’t look back, you’re not going that way.”  I LOVE IT. It is straight to the point and makes so much sense. ONWARD WE GO!

I celebrated Thanksgiving, with 2 thanksgiving dinners. They were both very yummy. Chris and I went to his parents house first, and then we swung by my cousins for our HUGE family dinner, where we ate our dessert. My family and Chris’ family are totally different. His extended family doesn’t get together very often, whereas my extended family (on my dad’s side) get together all the time – the majority of us even live within walking distance of each other. Chris’ parents told us dinner would be at 5:00pm, so we took the dogs to the dog park for a bit first so they wouldn’t be as excited during dinner (that didn’t happen), and we got to his parents house at 5:09pm – everybody has already ate dinner. Without us. I thought the point of having a family thanksgiving dinner was so we could have a FAMILY THANKSGIVING DINNER!! Oh well. It’s just how his family operates. It’s a shame though because it makes me feel less inclined to want to want to communicate with them, or get together with them when they don’t even want to be “together” with the family. Strange. My family dinner’s are scheduled for 5:30pm and we wait until 6:30pm for everybody to get there so we can eat. To each their own.

I’ve decided to participate in NaNoWriMo this year. I am super excited and super scared. I’m trying to come up with a plot, which has never been my strong suit. We’ll see how it goes this year. I hope to finish the 50,000 words. That means I need to make a plan of action!! I need to determine how many hours a day I’m going to write for a WRITE FOR THOSE HOURS. I must learn to follow through.

I’ve started writing in a food/exercise journal (read: I bought a journal designated to writing about food/exercise). I need to commit to losing weight and being more healthy. I’ve had enough of this self loathing garbage. It’s time to love my body again, which means treating it well! I’m going to start doing weekly weigh-in’s on this blog, because how else am I supposed to be accountable? Once again, I must learn to follow through.

I have my Halloween costume 🙂 I am going to be a vampire and Chris is going to be a zombie. We are going to be a bloody mess together – YAY! A friend of ours is having a Halloween party on the 31st and then we are going to a Halloween Shag (most people call them stag and doe’s – I think…) on November 1st, which is Halloween themed of course. It’s going to be super fun. Chris and I were going to host our own Halloween party, but decided against it, since there would only be about 5 people in attendance ( we are loners…)

That is pretty much all the randomness in my life right now.
xxx

nothing tastes as good as being skinny feels.

This is a crock.

I am beginning to get frustrated at the absurd amount of skinny love that is going around. Since when did everyone want to be so skinny? What happened to being healthy, and getting the right amount of vitamins and nutrients from your food, getting off your ass for an hour a day doing something you enjoy?
I find myself stuck between a rock and a hard place. I blame society and the media for this. I want to be healthy. I want to feel energized everyday. I don’t want my stomach to hate the things I eat because they are filled with preservatives. If that means I stay at the weight I’m at now, then that should be fine with me – but I am brainwashed. I see pictures of skinny girls everywhere I go. I walk into a store and have to rummage to the very back to find my size of pants. I feel shamed for this.
There should be an obvious difference between being healthy and being skinny. I see people everyday who are “overweight”, eating healthy meals and walking instead of taking the stairs, drinking water instead of pop, turning down that piece of cake at work, etc. but people still deem them as “ugly” or “unhealthy” because they aren’t skinny. Some people just don’t want to eat celery for every meal and sweat like a freak of nature every night, but that doesn’t make them “unhealthy”.
I exercised with a trainer for about a year. I lost 30 pounds and I felt awesome. I also wasn’t very social at the time. Then I moved in with a friend, started dating, and dancing the night away – I gained it all back. I hated myself for a long time, because I was shamed into thinking that because I wasn’t skinny anymore I wasn’t healthy, or I wasn’t good enough. I couldn’t love my body the way it was because society didn’t love my body. I also know I wasn’t giving enough time to my health and fitness, which is why I gained all the weight back. I know if I still choose to eat a salad (which I do enjoy because you can make really delicious ones), or ran on the treadmill every few days, I still would have gained some of that weight back, but not all of it. I’m never going to be skinny, and I shouldn’t want to be. I should want to be healthy. I should love my body every single day of my life, no matter what it looks like. As long as I’m not filling it with garbage and neglecting it, that should be all I ask for. It takes a lot of time and a lot of energy to be one of those skinny girls. The requirements don’t fit everyone’s schedules or lifestyles. I have a job, a dog, a boyfriend, another job, hobbies, etc. I want to spend time doing all of these things. If that means I can’t spend 2 hours at the gym (15 minutes going there, 15 minutes getting ready, 45 minutes exercising, 15 minutes showering, 15 minutes getting ready, 15 minutes driving home), then why do I have to feel so bad about this? Why do I have such an urge to look the way society wants me to look? This is bullsh*t!
I wish things weren’t so opposite. I wish when I logged onto Pintrest and I search under Health & Fitness that I’m not bombarded with images of tiny girls. I wish I didn’t have to leave the mall feeling upset because sizes are getting so much smaller, and nobody feels good about having to buy the next size up.

In the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson “To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment”